I am tired.

It is 9:30 and I am about to drop dead I am so tired. It looks like I will be going to bed veryyy soon. Last night/this morning was (hopefully) my last rove. Definitely my last scheduled rove, so unless I have to cover for someone, I AM DONE. Okay, so I know I only did it twice, and it really isn't even that bad, but I still like knowing I don't have to do it anymore.

If I could just nap, the day after my rove it would be a breeze, but of course I couldn't fall asleep. I laid in bed for an hour trying and then got frustrated at my lack of productivity so I got out of bed and did some school work. Mostly reading for child development since that is my favorite homework. It scares the crap out of me learning about some of the things that can go wrong, but it also talks about the good things and makes me so excited for the future.

It's crazy that "the future" is getting so close. I mean, not like this year close, but still...its getting scary close. I still feel like I'm in high school, maybe even junior high. College kids always looked so old, but I feel so young. I wonder if every age feels this way. I wonder if I'll be sitting in a rocking chair when I'm 80 feeling like a BYU freshman.

I think a lot about the future on days like this. Days where nothing bad has happened, but I'm just in a cruddy mood. I'm sure its just the lack of sleep. Actually, today was pretty great now that I think about it. But my attitude wasn't. Again, I need sleeeeeep.

I had writing and bio today. Biology is actually suprisingly good. I thought I would hate it since I'm not a science gal, but Professor Smith is way cool. Sometimes that class feels like elementary school. Today we did that experiment where you see how many drops of water you can get on a penny. We were talking about the properties of water. Prof. Smith made the joke that if you see a drowned fat person you know it was murder because fat floats. That guy is hilarious. Makes my day.

After a long day, dinner tonight was exactly what I needed. Not the actual food. The company. I seriously have the greatest friends in the entire world. They make me laugh. They listen. They care. We were literally at dinner for three hours. But I needed every second of those three hours. I don't know why I was so blessed with the friends Heavenly Father placed in my life this year. He knew what I needed more than I did. He continues to show me every day that He is aware of me. He loves me. And that is what matters most.

Tomorrow is going to be a good day.

Decision made.


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